I am a Jedi Knight of the Force

Pain....suffering....lose....sacrifice....these are things a Jedi knows well. However, a Jedi does not let these emotions drive them, control them, take them over. For that is the way of the Sith. They rely on their passion for their strengths, they are selfish and cowardly. The Jedi are not, they think outward only of others. But I still miss him. I feel selfish by wanting him back. I want my old friend, my master, my brother. I want him to come back and smile agian, to laugh, to teach. I want him to protect all of us with no heath to what may happen to him. To die for others, that is what he did. Selfless acts such as these define the Jedi you are and will be and how you will be judged in the Great Halls of the Jedi. But why am I selfish? Why do I want him to be alive again!? Why can I not control these emotions like the others can?! A Jedi must be careful of his acts and feelings, for they may lead to the Dark Side of the Force.

I am not looking forward to the burial. I will have to start it. I will have to start a flame in his flesh that will carry him to the afterlife. But will I be able to do it? Will I be strong like him and carry out my solumn duty? Master Obi-wan once said, "The hardest part of being a Master is burying your Padawan." Well it's the same thing for the Padawan. To bury your Master, your friend, and family is something that no one should every have to go through. I know understand what Master Dante went through with Seth. This is so hard and I am alone. So alone...

Pain....suffering....lose....sacrifice....these are things a Jedi knows well.

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